It's sickness Combo this time! Having throat inflammation, flu and the worst part is fever.. Whenever there's sore throat it always comes with fever for me.. Hate it when it comes to sore throat.. Cuz it makes me dun feel like eating and drinking.. It's gooD if i wanna go on diet.. But i always have gastric pain nowadays so i dun intend to not eat for my meals.. Having medication dun wanna eat also must eat if not how to take medication? Porridge and porridge loh.. Wat else??? Boring ! ! !
Having crave for CHOCOLATES! If i'm gonna eat them den i think u guys can go hospital and find me le.. I have been on MCs and MCs nowadays.. Die lah.. Must stop myself from being falling sick le.. Dun wanna go on MC anymore! Cuz after my MC day, when i step into office there'll always be loads of work waiting for me to clear! Tired de loh.. Not recovered also have to finsh de work..
Dunno why before i got sick i noe i'm gonna be sick but just dun bother about it.. Actually thought of telling my darling when i realise i was not feeling too gooD. But i did not.. Den i started becoming moody.. I dunno why i started asking him weird questions tat makes him feel tat i am checking on him. Is jus tat cuz my darling has not been talking to me for 2 weeks? He was busy due to Chinese New Year.. And he was also having throat inflammation before chinese new year.. I jus wanted to noe wat he actually was doing for the past 2 weeks. I was not checking on him.. I dunno how to tell him tat i am always wondering if he misses me or wondering wat i was doing when he's busy. Haiz..
Why is my boyfriend so different from other guys tat i noe? I noe he's unique but too unique tat i dunno how to express myself anymore.. It makes me feel tat i'm not a little princess in his world but a lady? I have to be reali independent, reali behave like a woman i shall say.. It's hard for me sometimes cuz i have always been treated like a princess, i have never knew wat is independent till i met him. Everything also have to do myself, places i dunno how to go i have to find my way out, things i dunno how to do i also have to find a way to finish it. Sometimes is not tat i dun wanna think and use my brain.. But sometimes i reali feel tired and wanna be treated like a princess like the way i used to.. I reali dunno how to tell him.. Cuz he always have things to settle, things to worry about, things to do and things to finish. I dun wan him to feel tat i'm a burden to him but i reali feel tat i am a stress object to him. I made him feel tat i am irritating and unreasonable at times. Or should i say most of the time?
I am just vexed tat i dunno wat i should do.. I jus wanna say, bebe i'm sorrie
Labels: Sickness Combo
