It's been 100 days since my beloved uncle passed away. Realli missing him.. But life still has to go on. Grandma and grandpa is going back to Penang for visiting cum short trip holiday next Friday! Yeah!!! Finally get to have the room to myself for weekends the coming week.
Me and my boyfriend is still not done with the quarrel we last had.. He says we both needs a cool off period. Fine.. I'll have my life and u have yours. That is jus all you wan from me.. Cannot have comments, cannot have expectations, cannot have hope, cannot ask when is the next time he's meet me. I jus dunno why do i have to be so different? Why can't i ask things tat comes to my mind? I jus understand that i cannot think of things i wanna do for next few days, cuz he jus can't take it. All i can do is think for the next day instead of thinking of plans for the whole week. I am jus someone who likes to think of plans for the coming week and tat's the reason why i like to ask before hand. Why isit jus so wrong to ask him when is the next time he's meeting me? I jus dun get it....! Everything i do is jus so wrong to him.. I am also very tired of thinking.. But why am i doing all these??? Cuz i jus miss him so much tat i can't wait to see him! Why can't he jus understand my feelings and my thinking? I'll be more den happie if he can tell me an estimate of when is the next time i'll be seeing him... He jus dun get it at all.. I dun demand for alot of things but is jus an expectation from my point of view for a boyfriend. Am i jus so difficult to understand and get along with??? All that i'm asking for is jus a simple call telling me wat he'll be doing next. Tat's all!!! I am jus so used to be pampered and cared for.. Dun expect me to get used to not being pampered and have all the concerns i used to have. It realli hurts deep down in me..
I'm not the one being unreasonable.. Is jus an expectation..
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