Today's work is like so tired??? I dunno why but it's giving me headaches.. Was so busy in the morning but after lunch was slightly better and the work makes me have super dry eyes. Think is caused by the air-con. Den had a little rest and started becoming busy after my toilet break. My boss came in.. Den start to become soOo busy tat i dunno wat i'm doing? Ya i said i am super bad with numbers.. And i'm supposed to issue cheques! And write alot of things tat i can't remember doing it the 2nd time? It makes me feel like killing myself!!! Isit jus my brain? Or isit cuz of numbers? Think is both, cuz it's somehow linked..
It's my bebe's bookout today! Was looking forward to it.. And it's finally here..! After work i was tidying up my mind with my work.. Den left the office and went to meet my mummy for dinner as usual. Reached home and had a stoopit quarrel with my grandma. She can actually argue something tat is not real??? She always feels tat the things she say is always correct??? I dunno!!! I jus feel reali hate it when she's like tat. Cuz i actually asked my mummy about the christmas party tat my uncle is holding. But it has not come to a conclusion until this morning? Cuz i should be having parties to attend on christmas. Cuz my uncle did not confirm tat he's holding the party, so i assume tat he's not! Cuz he'll be back from Hong Kong only on Christmas day! And tat makes me have no intention in having christmas with my family? And she can tell me tat it was confirmed since so many weeks ago? It's like WAT THE!!!!! Hate it.....!!!!
Den my boyfriend called, at first the talk was still in peace, but after awhile we started again.. Quarrels and arguments.. I reali dunno wat is wrong between us.. He claims to say tat it's me who is making this relationship become like tat. Wat have i done wrong again?? I reali dunno wat is wrong! He has expectations on me, and it will be the same tat i will also have expectations on him! I am here trying to get myself up to his standard but has it gone down the drain? I am trying and he says he noes tat i'm trying but why can't he jus gimmi more time to see more changes? Dun force me to find the way out! I reali can't do it and i am trying reali hard! Jus gimmi somemore time and i'll prove to you. Jus dun force me during my tries.. I only can say tat i am willingly doing and trying jus for you bebe.. I dunno how much u can understand wat i'm trying to say, but yes, i am reali very happie being with you. I jus dunno why you're not happie with my answer but it comes from my heart and from the deepest side of me. I have thought it so many times before u asked me this question today, cuz during our cool off period i asked myself alot of things tat i noe i still love you and will be forever.. Tat is me and it will always be.. Since u said u see some changes in me den gimmi more time to change jus for you.. And someday you'll noe you've not made a wrong choice. Tat's me!!! I love you
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